5 Years Time

Well, like I said I was gonna try to post "music videos" from time to time. I know I've talked about the song in the last post but I wanted to make a vid for it anyways. Seeing them live was really great.

EU open house

It's Monday and I'm finally back to the Helpdesk. It's been 2 and a half hours already since I came in and I wanna sleep soooo bad right now. My fault for not sleeping early but somehow, the earliest I've managed sleeping was 11.

Weekend was good overall. I stayed in during the evenings and it was nice to just stay home and relax. I haven't felt like cleaning and mostly just dilly dallied around the house. I rented a movie and a Wii game on my way home from work, that way I won't have to set foot outside once I go home. I watched How to Lose Friends and Alienate People. I thinik I might have heard of the book before. Granted I haven't read it, I just got the movie anyways. I thought it was funny and sweet though. They were talking about the movie La Dolce Vita which I've stumbled on a lot of times but never watched it.

Saturday, they had the embassy open house again. It's where the embassies in DC let the general public in where you get to look around and take a little tour of their respective embassies. I went with two friends I was with the week prior though two others joined us on this day. We all met up around 9:30 to get an early headstart but alas, none of the brunch places was open until 11. We waited around since we were all hungry. But it was worth it :D Frontpage had a really good buffet though I initially was gonna get their Eggs Benedict. I need to learn how to make that at home.

It was really fun, trying to scare friends with a pigeon, taking pics of a cute guy, etc. I even got to take a pic with one of the ambassadors, I think?. We didn't know he was one since he was just sitting down while we walked by. We saw a picture of a guy with George Bush and when we looked back, realized that it was him. I'll add the pic later, since it's on facebook but it's blocked here at work.


Sunday was Mother's Day as everyone knows, and I really didn't get to spend it with my mom. I told my coworker I was gonna help him not realizing it was gonna take all day. But oh well, mom's happy with the flower that I got her. When it was delivered, I wanted to keep it for myself haha.

So that was the weekend really. Gotta head out for an appointment now so will cut this short. I'm trying to get back on writing more like I used to.

Wherever he goes, there'll be love

Some of you might have heard this song below. Anyway, just thought I'd update a moment. I'm managing a bit better with C- and the dog gone. It feels a bit off going home to an empty apartment with no one there to greet you with their smile or the dog just bouncing around happy to see you.

Classes are finally over after this week which I'm glad about, I certainly can use the break right about now. I did decent on most classes except Precalculus. Not sitting down and studying for the exams is gonna cost me but it's too late to change that now. I knew what was happening but somehow, instead of doing something about it, I just sorta took my fate and took responsibility for my actions. I'm either getting a D or an F, and I can kick myself about it over and over but it's not gonna do any good. So that, I'm realizing I'm not applying myself as much as I could.



5 Years Time - Noah and the Whale

Now the post seems dreary. But getting back to Noah and the Whale, they were amazing!! I already got tickets for another band playing last Saturday night but when after watching Noah, it was sooo worth it. I felt really happy just being there and seeing them live. The lead singer was cute too so that made it better. Each of the band member was sexy in their own way. Even the violinist! To produce that kind of beauty just mesmerized me. Did I mention that I love the show!? I soo wanna stalk this band now haha. Their CD is actually good, I've pretty much been listening to it on my way to work and back.

I sorta made this an unofficial song to C-. There's just something sweet to the sentiments of the lyrics that when I heard it, it just felt it applied to how our relatinship. Though the following reflects any sorts, whether it be lovers or friends since who knows what can happen in five years time.

Oh in 5 years time, I might not know you.
In 5 years time, we might not speak it all.
In 5 years time, we might not get along.
In 5 years time, you might just prove me wrong.

I can't believe this

I never did this when I was a kid but tonight I sat next to my mom in
her bed and admitted to being lonely when she asked me. I didn't stay
long since with her trying to console me, I got annoyed with some
things she said. What the duck's wrong with me sometimes? It's the
first day since C- and the dog left for Chicago. It'll take a little
getting used to. Did I get what I wanted though? I need to go
somewhere just for a while... It won't be for a few more weeks though,
with school not being over til the 11th. I want my world to stand
still...

It's been a long time

Had to redo a video since the first one didn't record my audio and it was a 5-min video too.. booooo! Here's a second take:


Been a long time -

And his voice came out of nowhere

     So apropos.. I've never had to use that word but I like the way it sounds after hearing it from a song by a band/guy I discovered, Bon Iver. But alas, he came to DC last year and I missed his show.

    I felt the need to stay quiet for a bit and not write about what's been happening. Work's been good for the most part. I've gotten the hang of it and been pretty much taking calls all day with a few questions to my coworkers. Been a bit busy with school. I'm actually taking a full load this semester to get a feel as to what it's like. It's been good though I'd still want to do it full time but not work full time. Maybe get a part-time gig but concentrate more on school. I'm taking classes at the local community college but will transfer eventually to one of the universities around, more than likely George Mason.

    The classes are pretty good. I'm taking Sociology, two computer classes, and Precalculus. I'm struggling a bit with Precal eventhough I liked Math a lot when I was younger. I guess having been out of school for like six years played a part so there, would have to study more and maybe get with a tutor even.

    Aside from that, one or two bloggers knows that C- and I are no longer together, for almost two months now. I'm not really gonna get on the details since it'll be unfair to him but that's that. I might write more about it from my point of view but it was real foggy for the longest as to what the exact reasons are. I really can't pin point the one defining thing that prompted this since it's more of a mix. Some of it were my doing I'll admit, and I probably could have done things different., if not better. Could have been more patient, kinder, more loving. I guess you just learn from it and move on. That was the best I can do at that time, but I'm not closing the doors. I definitely have some things I need to work on, recognizing them after having lived with C-. And right now, I just feel the need to deal with them by myself. I feel bad when it seems I'm just dragging him down with me.

    I miss what we had of course and for the most part, it was good. It was a lot of firsts and for that, I'll always be grateful. I think when we met, it happened since that's what had to happen. We brought something into each other's lives that we both needed. I can say that I've been happier since I've met him, there's a ritual I used to do but I don't any longer ever since I've met him. We've talked about how our relationship is unique and I think we'll always be in other's lives, well that's how we feel at this time. If that gets fucked up though, it'll be on me since I do some hurtful things with no rhyme or reason that after the fact, even I'm left wondering where it came from.

   On a short note, I wanted to share a song by one of my favorite bands *grins I heard this song from my mp3 player on my way to work and bawled out like crazy since it just summed up how I felt at that time.
 
Something in me was dying
And my heart was heavy as stone
Hard as i was trying
I never could find, find my way home

And your voice came out of nowhere
Be my friend and give me your hand
Let's take off together
And then we can live wherever we land

Something in me was broken
And my thoughts were bitter and ill
My world was blown open
And I couldn't see and i couldn't feel
You said be yourself and think of me
And you'll know there's nothing to fear
Let's make plans together
It's time to move on and get out of here

Girl i need you
Don't know what I would do
Will you see the story through
It's a cruel world
And I need somewhere to hide
But time goes by
And your still on my side

Something in me was sinking
Cause my heart was heavy as stone
I gave up with thinking
I never would find, find my way home
And your voice came out of nowhere
Be my friend and give me your hand
Let's take off together
And then we can live wherever we land

Girl i need you
Don't know what i would do
Will you see the story through
It's a cruel world
And i need somewhere to hide
The time goes by and your still on my side

Waiting
Searching
Turning over
Running round in circles
And i've worn myself out
Hoping that we'll always be together
yeah we'll always be together
yeah we'll always be together
yeah we'll always be together
yeah we'll always be together
yeah we'll always be together
yeah we'll always be together

                       -Something in Me Was Dying
                        by Keane

It makes me smile

Yay, I got tickets to Lily Allen's show this April. This year is gonnabe a great one for catching gigs, just like my first year. There's gonnabe 4 shows I'm wanting to see, and got tickets for three of them so far. Has anyone else listened to Bon Iver!? I wish I saw them when they were in DC, but alas, I discovered AFTER the fact just like before with M.I.A., Mika, etc.