Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Again and again..

I've been back to work and in the DC area after going on a trip to Chicago with my mom. We were there for almost a week and mostly just did touristy things as can be seen when you click the picture. It was a good trip, I liked Chicago and would consider moving there, if only the winter doesn't get too cold haha I certainly am not a fan of the snow.

Right on the day we were leaving which was the 24th, and up til now, I've been getting headaches so that's been kicking my butt. I've gone to see a doctor but it's diagnosed at the moment as migraine. This is the longest I've ever had them so pretty much been laying low and staying home, even on the weekends. I was telling my mom how it's been a good thing since I'm not spending. Then, she turned around and said 'Well, you haven't been going out but you sure have been buying a lot online!' I'll admit I got carried away this past few weeks, pair of shoes here, book there, pants, belt, that's about it. I had to stop myself from buying another jacket at the store this past weekend. I think I might have a jacket fetish after all. I probably have about 12 now.

I really was glad this past weekend since I finally got to see Tracy Chapman! Her show was amazing, she sounded just like she did on her records. I'll admit I didn't know some of her new songs but it didn't take away from the experience. She sang all of my fave songs so that was really great. She even took a request by this one family that all got together to see her here in DC. I'm torn between The Promise and At this point in my life. I remember listening to the promise and crying, thinking it was my song to some of my loved ones, that even they're far away, I'll always be there for them. I actually named one of my blogs 'At this point in my life' but ended up keeping this one still . I probably have three or four 'hidden' blogs but I've never written posts on those. I don't know, when I feel the need to censor myself, I do consider it but at the end of the day, I still go back to this and opened up since it hasn't really hurt me doing so.

Now that summer will be over soon, I'm gonnabe taking classes again. I had to talk to one of the deans since I was foolish and flunked a class I was retaking. No excuses, I just don't apply myself from time to time. Looking back, I'd have all these things I set out to do, and I guess I get so hyped up that when the actual day comes, I just lose interest. Be it meeting new people for the first time, or experiencing something new. Like once it happens, I just go 'That was great" and that's the end of it, I lose interest.

I actually applied to 2 positions in Germany which I probably won't take. Well, there hasn't been any interviews or anything. I got bored at work and just went like, Hmm, get to live abroad again, suuure. They just posted the openings last week and I have a feeling they'll be getting a lot of people applying for it. I might just end up waiting since it's not like Germany's going anywhere, ya know? I can always visit and live there down the road. My plan was to get my Bachelor's by the time I turn 28 so that's 2 yrs from now, and if I move to Europe, I KNOW I won't be studying since I'm not a fan of online classes.

Reminds me of a 23 yr old I used to know. One would think he would have changed some by now...

Monday, August 3, 2009

Are you ?

Since the beginning, we have asked the same questions:
Am I safe? Am I important? Am I forgiven? Am I loved?

- Mary Pipher