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Suddenly Monday

It's close to Monday night and I'm just here sitting at work reading up on blogs here and there while everybody else got a day off. Should be training but not on a downday as we call it. We've gotten five phone calls at the most since I came on shift at 11, instead of 7 am.

I got sick on Friday but was pretty much out and about the whole day. I needed to get a car inspected before I can get the state sticker for my car and kinda had it planned out Thursday night. Was gonna get up before 8 am so I can go to a auto center to get it inspected. Well I did wake up early, but got online and got stuck talking on the messenger for an hour or so lol. Then, still needed to take a shower and have breakfast so didn't get to leave til about 10. Is it just optimism or stupidity that I think I'll just be able to waltz in and out of places I need to get things done with. So headed out to the first garage on my list, which took a while for me to find, being new to the area. Went on the wrong exit and was driving out 15 mins before I realized I'd made a huge mistake. Finally got there, and I was told they were full for the day so perhaps, I can come back Tuesday. I have a stubborn streak at times, and if I wanna get something done, I'll get it done as when I planned it damnit.

I just decided to go back home, stopping by one more garage on the way. And my luck! The mechanic just had to leave right when I got there since he had some teeth problems and was told maybe Tuesday, they'll have slots open perhaps since it's a first come, first serve. So made my way home, and got changed too since it was colder than I expected it to be. Found one garage that had slots after two phone calls so that was good. Had to mapquest it, and got to the place in about 10 mins. The mechanic that inspected my car is really cool. It's crazy that he's worked on and off of that garage for 50 years. First when he was in the 7th grade, then he joined the military and did a stint in Asia, then back in the same base I am assigned to, worked part time with the same garage. Then retired, and has worked ever since since around the late 70's. Crazyyyyy. Which reminds me that I really need to know cars a little bit more, well a lot more than I do now.

So that was over it, so it made me feel like I accomplished something for the day. I went back home and ended up taking a nap since I didn't feel so good. Found out too that touring Rent will be performing about 20 minutes from where I lived. Really considering going all day, Saturday but ended up just staying in to get better.

That gave me time to finally finish the Road Home (heard it through Robert) which was a nice movie. It was from the son's narration that you get to learn about his parent's love story which was really touching. That is just pure love right there!

Then, saw Transamerica as well which got me crying a little. It's a download but hey you gotta do what you gotta do. It was a touching movie, that got me laughing in some parts of the film.




and funny how I feel better than when I had to go back to work.

You Wouldn't Like Me

(Not something I wrote but kinda sums up how I get at times)

There's a war inside of me
Do I cause new heartbreak to write a new broken song
Do I push it down or let it run me right into the ground
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
Well I can't stop talking for fear of listening to unwelcome sound
And you haven't called me in weeks and honestly it's bringing me down
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me
And don't you worry there's still time
There's nothing to live for when I'm sleeping alone
And I wash the windows outside in hopes that the glare will bring you around
Sunshine is days away I won't be saved I know all the words
I can't say that I'll love you forever
I won't say that I'll love you forever

by Tegan and Sara

I miss them

I'm missing my family. Seeing their pictures made me happysad (had to steal that Rob hehe) It's amazing sometimes, family, considering some I have yet to meet. Inspite of, you still love them and hold them dear to your heart.

With me being on leave (vacation) for close to 45 days, I had enough time in my hands to actually meet my father's side of the family. I figured 22 yrs would be enough of not seeing them, so I saw them in South Carolina, on my way to Virginia coming from Florida. I seriously considered just driving through their town and not showing up lol. I got real nervous when I got down to about 20 mins away from their house. I got there and it was just my Grandma that was home so I guess that was kinda good. I would have just been eeeeek if there were tons of people to meet I'm sure. Being a people person and not at the same time, does that make sense? They're family and all but still :D

I'm at work right now, so a bit hard to sit still and write this whole thing. Maybe tonight, but then again so I won't forget the point, it pretty much comes down to make sure to tell your family you love them, especially if they're near. You'd probably think "They know that already!" It's still a nice feeling to hear that reaffirmation....that they're loved, coz action doesn't always speak louder than words.