There's actually a book out, The Missing Piece and the Big O that I came across today. It was online so got to read it. It made me smile and teary while watching the clip below I found on youtube. It's definitely now on my to get list.
I think it's true for everyone...in the end we hope to meet our Big O
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
New Day
Today was my first day at the new gig, it went fine overall though I was like 20 mins to the orientation. This is the first time I arrived late over something like that. I don't even know how it happened since I woke up like 2 1/2 hrs before I had to be there. Anywho, the people I'm gonnabe working with are pretty cool, and one of the guy who interviewed me even took me down to the cafeteria and stuff. He actually told me he wanted me for his team but didn't want to take me away from my boss, lovely.
So yea, it's off to a good start working at the new job. Just a bit of a dilemma though. With the whole quitting thing, I actually didn't leave my company after having talked to the manager, I had her yank the separation paper and asked her if she can find me a swings or a night shift position with the company. I need to talk to the guy I was working with the past month or two since he'd be open to keeping me, but not sure if he would if he finds out I can't come in til like 4 or so. Normally the swings do 2:30 til 10 but will see. Another bump is that where I work, they really don't have a parking lot so they're saying I might want to just catch the metro which would be fine, except I'm not sure how I can get to a second job if ever so maybe it's not fine.
Just had to let it out since it's been in my head all day and people I normally would talk to about it might get tired of hearing any of it.
Oooh, got my new glasses today. I've had the same one for two years now and I opted for a plastic ones instead of metal. I think it looks nice, haha! I just tried it on but didn't wanna wear it yet, oh my godd, that's my mom talking. Whenever we used to buy stuff, we don't actually wear it or whatever until a "special" occassion, makes me laugh now.
She's no longer living with me as of yesterday. She's still in the area but she's with her man now haha. The guy's nice and all but I CAN'T stand having him at the apartment ALL the time, it just feels awkward for me somehow so derrrr. I'm on the fence about getting a roommate since I get aggitated with some little things, like if people use the sink and not watch the areas around it that's wet, people stepping out of the shower into the rug while still soaked instead of drying off before getting out, I'm not the only one am I?
Weekend was good overall, hang out with my cousin on my dad's side that moved here to DC. I need to reach out to him more, I've just been cocooning myself lately over some things that's happened. But I kinda slipped in our conversation that I was gay like real casual. It came up how my dad and I haven't spoken for almost 2 years now, and I told him our communication went to a halt when I came out to him over the phone, so I think my cousin got it.
It's 12:30 and I can't sleep it. I have to be up in 4-5 hrs but am awake now which is odd. I was dozing off in class BIIIIG time even my classmate noticed, heh. Will just go read a book then, ni ni :)
So yea, it's off to a good start working at the new job. Just a bit of a dilemma though. With the whole quitting thing, I actually didn't leave my company after having talked to the manager, I had her yank the separation paper and asked her if she can find me a swings or a night shift position with the company. I need to talk to the guy I was working with the past month or two since he'd be open to keeping me, but not sure if he would if he finds out I can't come in til like 4 or so. Normally the swings do 2:30 til 10 but will see. Another bump is that where I work, they really don't have a parking lot so they're saying I might want to just catch the metro which would be fine, except I'm not sure how I can get to a second job if ever so maybe it's not fine.
Just had to let it out since it's been in my head all day and people I normally would talk to about it might get tired of hearing any of it.
Oooh, got my new glasses today. I've had the same one for two years now and I opted for a plastic ones instead of metal. I think it looks nice, haha! I just tried it on but didn't wanna wear it yet, oh my godd, that's my mom talking. Whenever we used to buy stuff, we don't actually wear it or whatever until a "special" occassion, makes me laugh now.
She's no longer living with me as of yesterday. She's still in the area but she's with her man now haha. The guy's nice and all but I CAN'T stand having him at the apartment ALL the time, it just feels awkward for me somehow so derrrr. I'm on the fence about getting a roommate since I get aggitated with some little things, like if people use the sink and not watch the areas around it that's wet, people stepping out of the shower into the rug while still soaked instead of drying off before getting out, I'm not the only one am I?
Weekend was good overall, hang out with my cousin on my dad's side that moved here to DC. I need to reach out to him more, I've just been cocooning myself lately over some things that's happened. But I kinda slipped in our conversation that I was gay like real casual. It came up how my dad and I haven't spoken for almost 2 years now, and I told him our communication went to a halt when I came out to him over the phone, so I think my cousin got it.
It's 12:30 and I can't sleep it. I have to be up in 4-5 hrs but am awake now which is odd. I was dozing off in class BIIIIG time even my classmate noticed, heh. Will just go read a book then, ni ni :)
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
It's a blue, black blue Wednesday...
Dunno why I had the urge to Goldfrapp's A&E before posting this.
Decisions
Sometimes, I wish someone can make my decisions for me and I'll do whatever I was told. This is mainly with the whole job, granted I accepted the offer and is set to start next week, my current company talked to me yesterday and is trying to find ways to get me to stay. I'm surprised with the lengths that they would do for me to stay. As nice as it is, it's seriously messing me up in the head. I'm questioning whether I made the right choice. It's pretty much a toss up between staying with my company, and work as a contractor or switch to the government job. I've been applying for government jobs for like 2 1/2 years and finally landed one. And now, my company is even telling me they'd move me to Europe if it means I'll stay with them. They would even try to find C- a job here in the area since he came up during my talk with one of the managers, outing myself in the process. I dunno why I was like whew, so they still can't tell then haha, since some people told me they "knew" the first day I walked in the office, sheeesh.
I just wanna ball up in a corner until I think it all through. It probably won't make much sense to others but I just needed to let it out.
I just wanna ball up in a corner until I think it all through. It probably won't make much sense to others but I just needed to let it out.
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